It's a couple days before Christmas, and I just wanted to take a moment or two to write you a note and try to tell you just how much I LOVE You!
Christmas is one of my very favorite times of year, Ian. I think you will like it a lot too as you get older. As you know, it's a time when we get to celebrate Jesus' birthday. I hope that Daddy and I will properly convey to you as you grow just how incredible it was that Jesus came as a little baby to live with us - and how awesome it is to be able to celebrate Him!
I also love Christmas for the love that surrounds the season. The time we spend intentionally thinking of others, the time to spend with family (like grandpas, grandmas, aunts, uncles, and of course each other!), the effort put forth to beautify the house by decorating with trees and ornaments, stockings and lights. It's a beautiful time of year.
I know this is your 2nd Christmas, Ian. And from the first day I knew of you, I've always seen you as my gift from God. My boy, you make mommy SO happy, and I love you more than words can describe. I love to watch you grow and to spend time with you. I love what you are learning and love watching you explore your world. You are truly a gift - I think that every single day, even days when you're a stinker. :]
Although I am always see you as a gift, I've been particularly thankful for you in this Christmas season. We've told you a little bit about Adaiah. I know you are too young to understand now, and that's ok. Mommy misses Adaiah, buddy. Even though he/she wouldn't have been with us yet this Christmas even if he/she were alive, I still miss having our little baby around for this holiday. I would have loved to celebrate with Adaiah. Maybe you would get "big brother" things. Maybe you could help us decorate a new nursery for your new little brother/sister. I know you would have had a lot of fun - and I know you will make a GREAT big brother someday.
Ian, even though Mommy misses Adaiah, I am extra thankful for you because of the joy that you bring. I thank God extra for you, because if I didn't have my Ian-gift, I think I would be a great big mess (even more than I already am). I am so thankful that I have you to hold and cuddle, to play with, to sing to, to read to, to go for walks with, to feed, to change diapers, to go on car rides with - to enjoy every moment of the brightness you bring to my life.
I will tell you every single day that I love you. I promise to convey to you every day what an incredible gift from God you are. And I promise to do my very best to help you appreciate the meaning of Christmas - the love that brought Jesus down to be a baby, (just like you were), so that we can know God and enjoy all the incredible gifts He's given to us.
Merry Christmas, Ian!